Day 07- Your ex-boyfriend/love/crush

My once dearest,

I really have nothing to say to you.

You probably wouldn’t listen if I did have things to say.

Best regards,

Kim

Day 06- A Stranger

Hello, Stranger:

I’m not really sure what to say to you. Being as I don’t know you, I have no idea as to your interests. I could tell you about myself. Although, I’m not sure what good that’ll do you. I’m not sure what good that will do me either.

What do you believe in? For you, what’s worth fighting for? I’m always intrigued by other’s ideas and notions. What’s most important to a person teaches me far more than “what do you do for a living?” Quite often our occupation is what’s there, not who we are.

I work in retail. It’s not what I “do”. It’s what I tolerate so I can have food and a car. See? You didn’t learn much about me there, did you? Oh well. It’s not as though you’re going to write back.

Do you believe in Destiny, Stranger? I do. I’m not really sure how it’s helping me, but I believe in it. I wish on stars, too. Although, lately, I’ve only stared at them. No wishing. I’m trying to give up wishing. It’s no good. Every dandelion, first star, 11:11, necklace chain and penny in a fountain wish has proved false. I never expected the wish to magically materialize before my eyes. I only thought that maybe putting that hopeful energy into the world would make things a little lighter.

But, alas, it did nothing.

Interesting how one can say things to a stranger and feel alright with it. I don’t know if you’re even listening. Doesn’t really matter, though, does it?

Goodbye, Stranger. Lovely chat.

Always,

Kim

Reasons I Don't Date

Due to this week's experiences, here is the list of reasons I hate dating:

1. I suck at it.

2 I don't have the patience.

3. I hate games.

4. I don't like people touching me.

5. There's too much pressure.

6. I hate flirting.

7. I suck at flirting.

8. I'm too in control of my "emotions".

9. I don't trust people, especially men.

10. I'm not good with forgiveness.

11. I don't take compliments easily.

12. People aren't as honest as they should be.

13. Boys are too simple.

14. Boys are so simple, they end up confusing me.

15. Actions speak louder than words and people forget that.

16. I don't like to make eye contact.

17. I over-analyze EVERYTHING in EVERY aspect of my life.

18. I'm not sure I even WANT to get married.

19. I hate the "what does this mean?" game.

20. I'm not normal when it comes to anything else, why would I want to "date"? That sounds like something a normal person would do.

21. Meeting other people's families really freaks me out.

22. Apparently, Captain Hook isn't real. Therefore, why bother?

23. My cats will always love me more than any man ever could.

24. I've heard/witnessed too many horror stories.

25. I'm pretty emotionally independant.

26. I'm pretty spiritually independant.

27. I hate that I have to pretend I don't burp.

28. Let's be honest, nobody will ever be rich enough *shrug*

29. Too many people lose themselves within their "significant other". I refuse to lose myself. I'd rather be alone.

30. I have a fear of abandonment.

31. My dog gives me more kisses than I will ever need.

32. Not enough men like ballet.

33. I'm too ticklish.

34. I don't handle anger well, and boys make me angry.

35. I don't like who I am when I'm trying to impress people.

36. You shouldn't have to try to impress people.

37. Men in books are just SO MUCH BETTER.

38. It's too hard to list the foods I do and do not eat.

39. I absolutely DETEST insincerity, and that happens all too often when "dating".

40. PDAs? Not a chance.

41. I'm a black and white sort of person. I hate when anything is in a gray area.

42. I hate waiting for someone other than myself to make a decision.

43. Too many people are cowards.

Shall I go on...?

Day 05- Your Dreams

To my dreams both big and small:

Please come true.

I know that’s a lot to ask. I try to chase after you as best I can. Sometimes, my circumstances prevent me from a full pursuit. I try, though. And, I’ll never give up on you.

But, you already knew that, didn’t you?

Always,

Kim

Day 04- Your Sibling

Dear Flow Flem,

I want you to know, first off, that I love you. I love you a lot. I miss hanging with you on a more regular basis. We have good laughs, and probably always will.

I’m really proud of you for how much you’ve grown. It’s really impressive. You need to stick up for yourself and are doing so in incredible ways. Keep going.

I still think we should go on the Amazing Race, if only to prove to Mom that we wouldn’t argue around the entire world. We would effing win the million dollars. Just sayin’.

See you Saturday (hopefully).

Love always,

Flen Flem

Day 03- Your Parents

To my parents,

I have three of you. Unconventionel, yes, but it worked out quite well for Aly and I. We love you a lot, and we both turned out pretty alright. I’m glad I had three parents. It made things different, and we all know how I feel about a “normal” life.

Thanks Mom, for teaching me independance, self sufficiency, and humor. From you I learned about hard work, perseverance, and to do act when you get a good idea. You’re also good for talking too.

Grandma, thank you for letting me move home (time and time again). Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for letting me bring cats into your home, when you hated them. And, thank you for having the coffee made in the morning. That helps me more than you’ll ever know.

I don’t know if you’ll be reading this Grandpa, but I just want to tell you I miss you, and anytime something goes wrong with my car, I try to think of what you would do. I miss baseball. We had good times there. I’m sure your having a grander time than we are right now. Love ya, and talk to ya later.

You guys are the best and I am so thankful that you are in my everyday life. Thanks for telling me how proud you are of me. It helps. Love you guys!

Love always,

Kim

Day 02- Your Crush

To whom it may concern:

I title this letter as such for I am still uncertain of my "crush" status with you. While I am unsatisfied with the word crush itself... Wait. My phone is ringing...

It's you.

Oh.

I guess there's nothing else to say to right now.

Always,

Kim