Uh... Sorry for the blog break. To be honest I didn't even notice I hadn't been here. With good reason.
My grandpa died.
It was long... and sad... and difficult.
But, now we're coping. Well, they are. I think I've dealt with it. I don't know. I keep saying that I prepared myself and that's why I'm not emotional. I believe that. I really do. I'm just different from other people and that's why I don't deal with things the same way.
People die. It's inevitable. When you battle with Death... eventually you lose. No matter what.
Therefore, when Grandpa started going down hill months ago, I told myself it was going to happen. Why? BECAUSE IT'S TRUE.
Maybe I'm more pessimistic than I want to be, and maybe I'm cold, but so far that's working. I cried at the viewing and his graveside services. I cried when it actually happened. I was sad. I still am sad. I just know how to handle it. Contrary to popular belief. *shrug* People die. Grandpa used to say "There are two things in life you HAVE to do. Pay taxes and die."
And he did.
And it sucks.
But, I'm fine.
Quick shout out to:
Kat, James and the arrival of The Bean. She's absolutely lovely.
Lacie who's birthday I totally forgot about. Love you. And happy belated birthday.
Angie, I'm pretty sure you don't read my blog, but you were a HUGE help to me at the viewing. Thank you.
Marc for Grandpa's motorcycle escort and for letting me cry on your shoulder.
Jessie. You are the best. Ever. Thank you for caring about my Christmas cheer. Holly is DEFINITELY incomplete without her Ornament.
Alright. I'm out.
1 comment:
No worries my love! I felt horrible for not being there for you during the funeral and viewing. I was in and out of emergency rooms, but just know I wanted to be there so badly.
You are very strong, and I wish I was more like you!
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