I'm probably going to the doctor today or tomorrow. Now, most of you know I'm not afraid of doctors. Doesn't bother me in the least bit to visit a medical establishment (unless people are barfing, I don't like barfing). HOWEVER, there is an exception. A strep test. Draw blood, x-ray me, MRI, I'd almost visit the GYNO before I'd ever want a strep test (calm down, I said almost). I hate them. Once, when I was eight, they had to have two nurses and my mom hold me down to get one. I think I kicked the nurse, in fact... I'm pretty sure I did. They're dreadful! I feel like they're choking me or something!! And, this time, I'll be all alone. Nobody to hold my hand.
I'm finding it interesting that everything reverts to me not having a boyfriend. I don't try to do that. It just always seems to come full circle, back to: Kim doesn't have anyone, and never will. I've been single for so long, I don't even know how long it's been anymore. *sigh* I used to think it couldn't get any worse, until a few weeks ago, it did.
Oh, yes. There's a boy. A really cute one. And, guess what! He doesn't even know I exist! I'm pretty sure he knows my name, and that's about it. It's driving me insane. I see him, and I think about him, and he makes me smile. But, as quickly as that smile springs to my lips, it's chased away by logic. He's popular, good looking (so good looking), and smart, which always ends badly for me. Always. Here's the kicker, though. Oh, yes, there's a kicker. We actually have some of the same interests! As if the Gods couldn't mock me anymore, they're dangling a guy right in front of me who I might actually have something with!
Call it intuition, or wishful thinking, I know there is something to this guy. My instincts are screaming at me, telling me to get to know him, but I just can't find the opportunity. I don't know what to do! My time here is so limited. I can't let this slip through my fingers. I just can't. I've done that so many times before, but this time... I feel like it's more than a cheesy, little girl, crush. I feel like the fates may have actually dropped him right in my path for a reason. And whether that be to date, or to find a person to just talk to, I need to get to know him. I don't know why, but I just do. Like I said, there's something to him. Something about him... Ah!
I hate this.
On a new subject, simply because I don't want to talk about blog boy anymore (oh yes, I've titled him blog boy), I'm currently reading three books right now.
#1 Wuthering Heights
It's alright so far. I'm not very far into it. I think I'll enjoy it, I may not go on and on about how much I love it. But, I'm not feeling it's a waste of time.
#2 A Game of Thrones
It's confusing, but starting to become less so (starting a new fantasy series is always a bit confusing in the beginning, so many people to meet, and places to see). I think I'm going to really like it. I've had my eye on George R. R. Martin for some time now, so I'm excited to see what he's all about.
#3 Capt. Hook
A delightful story of the younger Captain James Hook. Loving it. I'm about half done, and it's lots of fun. We all know how I feel about Jas Hook, so why wouldn't I like this? It's written by the man who wrote the screenplay for the film Hook (J.V. Hart). Which is one of my favorite versions of the good captain. Therefore, one can only conclude that I would more than enjoy this book.
I believe that is all I have to blog about at this time. I'm off to find out about a doctor's appointment. I trust all of you will be holding my hand in spirit for my strep test. *sigh* I'm not going to say who I wish really would be... Great... Now I've depressed myself.
Kittens playing in marshmallows!!
There. I feel a little better now.
1 comment:
I say go for it with the guy! What have you got to lose? You'll be gone soon anyway, right? Good luck at the Doctor! Tell me when you'll be there and I will push all my happy hand-holding thoughts your way at that precise moment.
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